Yuck

I have to do it, really this time. I can't stop for anything. Even if they notice. There is too much of me. Last week or so has been so bad for exercise, I will have to rectify this starting tomorrow. I have to do it. I hate how I look in all my clothes, my face. I love the days when my jeans are loose. I will be beautiful if I am thin, I will make what they say true. If I can't fix the inside, at least I'll be lovely on the outside. Cancun and homecoming will have to motivate me. If I go to homecoming.

Katie and Elise are seriously annoying. Katie immediately has to IM me when I get online, and I never want to talk to her. Everything she says on the forum ends in exclamation points!! Cuz she's too stupid to seriously learn how to write stuff!! Omg!! Katie does whatever Elise tells her to. Elise forces her opinions on everybody, so damn righteous, because it's not just her opinion, it's the way of the Lord. Even though she dares Brendan to give her strip teases. Fucking flaming hypocrite. Do you know anything other than what you have been told is right? Of tolerance, of love, of passion?

Anyway, I blow them off, Jiri blows me off, something like that, and I blow food off. That is the plan, Stan. I've forty four dollars in my lunch account according to Meem. My goal is to not buy anything all year. I've become like obsessed with fat people. I am so disgusted when I see them around, and so disgusted when I look in the mirror and count myself among them. And insanely jealous of thin people. It's true; America is obese. It's appalling. Anyway. that's enough for now, I suppose....

Good night.